Loneliness

        Loneliness. One of the many feelings I'm dealing with currently.  I've been falling asleep at around 11:30-12pm every single night thinking about home and all the people I've had to leave behind.  For all of you that are reading this back home, I miss you more than you could ever know.  Cooking and baking are two of the many things I do to keep from breaking down in front of everyone when something reminds me of home.  I've found that if I keep myself busy it's easier to keep going.
        Most of all I miss having someone to talk to who understands me.  I know Jesus is always by my side and that he's always open to talk to, but I need a guy who I can just have a vocal conversation with.  So there is a college here that has tons of college missionaries that teach there and their super cool, but they're all in the big city two hours away.  The family that runs the place has a bunch of kids and two of them are close to my age.  I only get to see them every once in a while so I don't know them very well.  There's kids at Esther's house and all but it's not the same.  I need American friends who are my age and understand me.  I hope everyone will pray for me to have the strength to keep on keepin' on.
         So for everyone that doesn't know we've got a new baby that we're taking care of currently. We found her and her mother on the side of the road and my dad stopped and checked on them to see if they were ok. Turns out the mother was unable to take care of the baby, so we are currently watching her until we figure out what our options are.  We need much prayer on this as well.
           My moms birthday is October 7th so I hope and pray that she will have a blast. She has been an amazing mother and friend all my life and has been even more so ever since we came here.  We've helped each other all through this process.  If it wasn't for her I definitely couldn't make it here at all.  She's everything a mother should be and more.  She's worked so hard to make living here as smooth as possible and I want her to relax and let us do all of the behind the scenes work.  Please pray for her, it is very hard for her, as it is for me, to be away from family and friends.
          It's also so hard to do everything here in Malawi, from cooking to cleaning, and everything in between.  With the electricity and water going off for a week, then on for a day, then back off again, it's not the American lifestyle were so used to.  We got two new puppies in the big city down down south which makes it a little bit easier on me at least.  They are both girls and little balls of energy.  Tice is a German Shepard mix and Sophy is a Maltese.  We bought them from some guys on the side of the road.  They've been doing well and have survived this long with this crazy family so I guess they'll do ok.  I'm still trying to let go of Aspen, my other dog back home, but I think I'll be ok 😊
          That's all I've got for now.  Sorry I haven't updated in a while, I haven't been able to with the wifi off and on and staying busy all the time.  Thanks a ton for reading!!!!!!! For more information on our family or if you'd like to support us you can go to purecharity.com/carneys